Skinny or Whole. Thick or Thin. Little or Large.

Simple generic words that can be phrased wrongly. 

"what would you like skinny or whole"- Do you mean whole fat milk or skinny milk? 

So I’ve been probnoring (problem ignoring) a lot of things lately & I honestly don’t know why.

Right now in my head I have a cluster

 of thoughts that don’t even make sense, 

Truth of the matter - I don’t want them to; thats when they become real

Why does one have to always think? 

note to self - problem of an overthinking freak (as some would say) ;) 

So one thing that has been spinning through my head lately is Eating 

- once again we’re back to that stepping stone, I don’t know why but over the past three weeks now I’ve lost total appetite over food, I feel as if I need to be sick. 

- note I know its wrong you shouldn’t be making yourself sick and don’t you worry sunshine I haven’t :) 

I’m not gonna lie I have had the urge to but I gotta say I’m proud of myself that I haven’t,

& that in itself is a massive hurdle, so if your feeling the same way then give yourself a pat on the shoulder - well done girly for not being sick ☆ you may not see it as a massive thing for not being sick today but it takes one step at a time to accomplish something, 

Got to start at the bottom to get to the top.

You’ll have your ups and downs I promise you, I still am.

But it does get better the grass really is greener on the other side. 

tell me what you do when you have feeling like these because right now i feel lost, I know this is meant to be a encouraging post and I’m sorry its not.

But i would like to hear your opinion on what you do when you feel low.. I’m at that point at the moment where I just can’t be bother, where i just can’t seem to get anything around my head. 

Weird but hey..

Thanks for hearing me out 

Sunshine 

☀