Some say people come and go.. I say you choose.
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Hey Sunshine.. So recently I had been placed in a pickle between friendships (relationships).. Good friends always stay but Hi5 to all those low maintenance friends, the ones you can pick up the phone & carry on the conversation from where you ended. ...I’ve been pushed away by a very good friend of mine (i thought) with the reason of “doing better” & “not having time for them”. When people push you away because they believe you can do better as much as you dont want to let them go they will go.. because they don’t believe they are good enough or deserving enough of you. As much as this may hurt, you have to let them be.. not letting them go but letting them be.. keep pestering them time to time, check up on them, see how they are doing because one day will come that .. they will come back to you. because they left you but you stayed to fight. As that person is fighting there own battle & as much as you may want to be there for them sometimes one has to "do it on there own” I’m a big believe in the fact of whats meant to be will be & if its meant for you.. it'll come back ☁ Therefore when the time is right those friendships will develop again .. sometimes people only come into your life to serve a purpose and once they’ve served it its there time to .. “move on” & I guess thats where you have to be strong in knowing that it’s time to ‘move on’ - oh I We’re supposed to grow old together..? laugh about the old times, cry over soppy films, fight over the littlest things.. I guess thats where we go wrong having these ‘expectations’ of people.. ... You can push me away as much as you want but those walls will fall one day & I will be waiting on the other side.. because walls are built to break Pushing one away doesn’t mean your weak it means your strong enough to push loved ones away.. mostly because You’re Afraid. Its a sense of defence mechanism.. understanding that puts you on the forefront, allowing you to understand why someones pushed you away. That might not be the case all the time but this is what I’ve found. Be strong sunshine.. because if you’ve been put into the situation you have enough strength to get through it.. find the fire within you . |
Hey Sunshine Cashmere Cat ft Ariana Grande
Is £9,000 tuition fees + expenses worth it for a piece a paper at the end when you’re paying for your materials, accommodation, food.. EVERYTHING?
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This song is soo good that I had to do a blog post on it.
So my head is spinning in various thoughts right now, its one of those songs that you forget about everything!
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So I’ve been lost in a whirl pool lately, just finishing my foundation in Art & Design at UAL
I have a lot of spare time to do a lot of unwanted thinking, putting certain things into prospective that I don’t want to make sense just yet.
- Uni - To go ahead & do a BA in Graphic Design or to go straight into the industry , which is a bit of a gamble. But I guess life about taking risks right?
Something to think about - What do you think?But would I regret it?
Is £9,000 tuition fees + expenses worth it for a piece a paper at the end when you’re paying for your materials, accommodation, food.. EVERYTHING?
Being at Uni what i had learnt so far through my foundation is that Art is all about Self Motivation.No ones going to push you, “YOU are your own motivation”
so... what are we paying for?
Being a design / art student is it not worth going out into the industry and work your way up?
But then there’s drawbacks,
- Getting your foot in the door;
selling yourself (not physical ;) don’t worry ) but personally.
The design industry is so competitive its pot luck, you got to have an outstanding portfolio ( which is something you build over uni - ✓ guess thats the whole point of design uni? Preparing you for the big bad world.. )
What’s your opinion?
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LEON
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| Leon - Heathrow Airport. |
Skinny or Whole. Thick or Thin. Little or Large.
Simple generic words that can be phrased wrongly.
"what would you like skinny or whole"- Do you mean whole fat milk or skinny milk?
So I’ve been probnoring (problem ignoring) a lot of things lately & I honestly don’t know why.
Right now in my head I have a cluster
of thoughts that don’t even make sense,
Truth of the matter - I don’t want them to; thats when they become real
Why does one have to always think?
note to self - problem of an overthinking freak (as some would say) ;)
So one thing that has been spinning through my head lately is Eating
- once again we’re back to that stepping stone, I don’t know why but over the past three weeks now I’ve lost total appetite over food, I feel as if I need to be sick.
- note I know its wrong you shouldn’t be making yourself sick and don’t you worry sunshine I haven’t :)
I’m not gonna lie I have had the urge to but I gotta say I’m proud of myself that I haven’t,
& that in itself is a massive hurdle, so if your feeling the same way then give yourself a pat on the shoulder - well done girly for not being sick ☆ you may not see it as a massive thing for not being sick today but it takes one step at a time to accomplish something,
Got to start at the bottom to get to the top.
You’ll have your ups and downs I promise you, I still am.
But it does get better the grass really is greener on the other side.
tell me what you do when you have feeling like these because right now i feel lost, I know this is meant to be a encouraging post and I’m sorry its not.
But i would like to hear your opinion on what you do when you feel low.. I’m at that point at the moment where I just can’t be bother, where i just can’t seem to get anything around my head.
Weird but hey..
Thanks for hearing me out
Sunshine
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Inner Beauty
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| Says it all. You are as beautiful as you think you are, You don’t need anyones opinion to tell you other wise, Yes I know the feeling that ‘ It’s different when a guy says it, in comparison to your best friend telling you’I know & you know what you are right.. to an extent! ButDon’t cry over them princess your tiara will fallIts hard when it’s from the people you least expect it from but i guess thats how we learn. Learn to take a step back and allow them to do what they want. Making you as a person stronger.Finding your Inner Beauty
Its formed from three things
That is the
no matter how much makeup you may wear.
A beautiful heart over rules a million pretty facesIf you carry the three main characterists of being a good person keeping positive, your inner beauty will shine through automatically. A personality is something that will develop and evolve for the better for lifetime but beauty is something that will fade it’s temporary.
It’s just a thought thats been smiling in my mind so i thought i would put up a post. Sorry about lack of posts Uni is hectic at the moment.
See you later
Sunshine ☀
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Confidence
What is this mysterious creature that allows you to do anything?
Aren't we the ones that stop ourselves.. hold ourselves back?
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Being a girl gone through aneating disorder You tend to lose yourself along the way forgetting what you were, This idea that 'people miss the person you were'
Confidence is something that played a massive part in this situation.. and to be honest to you its something you can fake. It's a perception.. So if you change your preception you can achieve anything you set your mind to... right?
You are the only one that can hold themself back.
It's easier said than done, harder than you think.
I know the pain that words can cause not only what people say but your own mind. The thing's that I've learnt through the years is not to listen to the words, the voices or the thoughts, It's the dark lonely nights where the mind likes to go running and make you chase after it. Learn to switch off, and move away from it.
- I laugh about the situation, but once its said don't allow it to stay in your mind to think about later.
As what I've learnt was no matter how much you'll try to lose weight your natural curve's will always stay. Learn to Love it! ( I know it sounds cheesy but it;s true)
- When I know I'm dwelling on something that isn't going to change, I change the subject I start thinking about things that I have to do.. Things that are actually important.
- Watch a good tv program.. I Suggest SCANDAL! - This topic needs its own post because its just THAT good!
- Take a breather and dance ☁
- Remove yourself from the situation or the place, get out for a bit and get a change of environment
- Music.. it tends to help at times but i find that you tend to listen to certain music depending on the mood your in = so sometimes it doesn't help.
- Youtube videos Funny ones Or vines - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXq4m0rXv8c
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See you Later,
Sunshine ☀
Aren't we the ones that stop ourselves.. hold ourselves back?
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Being a girl gone through an
Confidence is something that played a massive part in this situation.. and to be honest to you its something you can fake. It's a perception.. So if you change your preception you can achieve anything you set your mind to... right?
It's easier said than done, harder than you think.
I know the pain that words can cause not only what people say but your own mind. The thing's that I've learnt through the years is not to listen to the words, the voices or the thoughts, It's the dark lonely nights where the mind likes to go running and make you chase after it. Learn to switch off, and move away from it.
What I Do:
- I laugh about the situation, but once its said don't allow it to stay in your mind to think about later.
As what I've learnt was no matter how much you'll try to lose weight your natural curve's will always stay. Learn to Love it! ( I know it sounds cheesy but it;s true)
- When I know I'm dwelling on something that isn't going to change, I change the subject I start thinking about things that I have to do.. Things that are actually important.
- Watch a good tv program.. I Suggest SCANDAL! - This topic needs its own post because its just THAT good!
- Take a breather and dance ☁
- Remove yourself from the situation or the place, get out for a bit and get a change of environment
- Music.. it tends to help at times but i find that you tend to listen to certain music depending on the mood your in = so sometimes it doesn't help.
- Youtube videos Funny ones Or vines - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PXq4m0rXv8c
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I don't know if this help's but they're are a few pointers that help me , comment below what you think or if there's anything you do to help boost your confidence?
Sunshine ☀
