Some say people come and go.. I say you choose.
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Hey Sunshine.. So recently I had been placed in a pickle between friendships (relationships).. Good friends always stay but Hi5 to all those low maintenance friends, the ones you can pick up the phone & carry on the conversation from where you ended. ...I’ve been pushed away by a very good friend of mine (i thought) with the reason of “doing better” & “not having time for them”. When people push you away because they believe you can do better as much as you dont want to let them go they will go.. because they don’t believe they are good enough or deserving enough of you. As much as this may hurt, you have to let them be.. not letting them go but letting them be.. keep pestering them time to time, check up on them, see how they are doing because one day will come that .. they will come back to you. because they left you but you stayed to fight. As that person is fighting there own battle & as much as you may want to be there for them sometimes one has to "do it on there own” I’m a big believe in the fact of whats meant to be will be & if its meant for you.. it'll come back ☁ Therefore when the time is right those friendships will develop again .. sometimes people only come into your life to serve a purpose and once they’ve served it its there time to .. “move on” & I guess thats where you have to be strong in knowing that it’s time to ‘move on’ - oh I We’re supposed to grow old together..? laugh about the old times, cry over soppy films, fight over the littlest things.. I guess thats where we go wrong having these ‘expectations’ of people.. ... You can push me away as much as you want but those walls will fall one day & I will be waiting on the other side.. because walls are built to break Pushing one away doesn’t mean your weak it means your strong enough to push loved ones away.. mostly because You’re Afraid. Its a sense of defence mechanism.. understanding that puts you on the forefront, allowing you to understand why someones pushed you away. That might not be the case all the time but this is what I’ve found. Be strong sunshine.. because if you’ve been put into the situation you have enough strength to get through it.. find the fire within you . |
LEON
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| Leon - Heathrow Airport. |
Skinny or Whole. Thick or Thin. Little or Large.
Simple generic words that can be phrased wrongly.
"what would you like skinny or whole"- Do you mean whole fat milk or skinny milk?
So I’ve been probnoring (problem ignoring) a lot of things lately & I honestly don’t know why.
Right now in my head I have a cluster
of thoughts that don’t even make sense,
Truth of the matter - I don’t want them to; thats when they become real
Why does one have to always think?
note to self - problem of an overthinking freak (as some would say) ;)
So one thing that has been spinning through my head lately is Eating
- once again we’re back to that stepping stone, I don’t know why but over the past three weeks now I’ve lost total appetite over food, I feel as if I need to be sick.
- note I know its wrong you shouldn’t be making yourself sick and don’t you worry sunshine I haven’t :)
I’m not gonna lie I have had the urge to but I gotta say I’m proud of myself that I haven’t,
& that in itself is a massive hurdle, so if your feeling the same way then give yourself a pat on the shoulder - well done girly for not being sick ☆ you may not see it as a massive thing for not being sick today but it takes one step at a time to accomplish something,
Got to start at the bottom to get to the top.
You’ll have your ups and downs I promise you, I still am.
But it does get better the grass really is greener on the other side.
tell me what you do when you have feeling like these because right now i feel lost, I know this is meant to be a encouraging post and I’m sorry its not.
But i would like to hear your opinion on what you do when you feel low.. I’m at that point at the moment where I just can’t be bother, where i just can’t seem to get anything around my head.
Weird but hey..
Thanks for hearing me out
Sunshine
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What would you say is seen more attractive?
Having the 'Perfect' thighs = Stick think, thighs not toughing and you could fit your hands around your thighs with a flattish bum
Or
thighs that touch slightly from the top naturally and having a perky bum
Having the 'Perfect' thighs = Stick think, thighs not toughing and you could fit your hands around your thighs with a flattish bum
Or
thighs that touch slightly from the top naturally and having a perky bum
Which one would you classify to be more attractive?
Me: Being totally honest to you guys i would say that i would rather have a thigh gap and be able to wrap my hands around my thigh and my hands meet in the middle, than have bulky thighs 'toned' as some may say.
I think my fear is someone turning around and saying 'thunder thighs' to me. I strive to have skinny thighs.
What would you say is 'Sexier' being toned or thigh gap?
What would you rather have?
All of us girls have insecurities
i guess this is something that most girls wish for, yet again this is my insecurity every girl is different, i find it funny though how someone who has stick thin legs, the 'Perfect Thigh Gap' wish that they had nice healthy looking thighs, where skinny jeans aren't baggy they want to be able to fill there jeans. But then what is 'Healthy'? - the media portrays one thing but then a general person says another = Mind Fuck
Some are better at hiding it that other's, i think my number one insecurity is not having a thigh gap.
and now a days many girls are worrying about not having a thigh gap and they NEED one.
To be honest to you i feel like i NEED a thigh gap for people/boys to like me, if i don't then who would want to be with thunder thighs.
One of the main issues i face yet to date is trying to aim for that thigh gap, so far the difference that i have realized is that my hip bones are prominent now, and that my thighs had got slightly skinnier from the inside. Yet there still not like how i want them to be... Stick Thin.
